The song hasn't come. I'm not worried. ( Do you believe that? Yeah, me neither) Although at least I know more about it. I know it's called "More Than This" and I know what it's about... There's no doubt that I would make all of the same decisions over again bc it all lead up to here and now, and I wouldn't trade the lessons i have learned for ANYTHING. When it comes to my babies (both here and gone) it's easy to see why a certain someone walked away. I wanted it more. I could handle more. I could see more. He learned that the hard way, but thats not my guilt to bear. Nor is it something I saw at the time. I felt abandoned, mourning one child while raising the other, and no one to turn to. The very thing that should have broke me MADE me.
It may sound overly sentimental, but I'll be damned if it's not the truth. I hold no grudges, we are all built differently. I know now that there is nothing I can't handle. I have lived through that, and much more. I have lived through him, and much more. If this music career never works out, I'll live through it.
