30 post song challenge #5- a song that reminds me of someone. It occurred to me that yesterday's post covered that more than a song that makes me sad (as was the objective yesterday), so I will llet yesterday's stand for today.
So, a song that makes me sad...I immediately thought of "Hate Me" by Blue October. It just pulls at the gut. He was a mess, tearing himself apart piece by piece. The more he self destructed the harder she held on, just trying to hold him together. In the end, he loves her enough to want her to be happy, even if that means she has to stop loving him! As long as she loves him, she won't ever give up on him. My heart breaks everytime he screams "Hate me today...tomorrow...for all the things I didn't do for you...so you can finally see what's good for you."
If you listen to that song enough times, you will start to feel like one of these characters (or in my case, both of them depending on where my head is at). I have been this woman, killing myself to save the person that I love. Ignoring every sign that says to run like hell. I have been him as well...so lost in my own demons that I couldn't for the life of me understand why this person put up with my crazy...alternately pushing them away and desperately needing them to stay.
We are who we are, deep down. Everyone has their demons, and sometimes we conquer them, sometimes we don't. You can waste lifetimes waiting for someone to want to change. I'm a romantic. I believe suffering is a part of all great love stories. I believe in possibility. But this songs reminds me that sometimes we have to see things for what they are.
